Raquel

This just goes to show....

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 04:45:57 GMT

Okk....This just goes to show how much a person can lie and actually get away with it. No matter who it is....family, friends or a certain someone that you think you cared about. WHat the hell is wrong with me? Someone just answer that. I know Im too good for him....Im going somewhere in life and he isnt doing shit with his life...I thought we were friends but he doesnt even know how to be that. I hate him. I hate him for everything. For saying he loves me. For saying he cares. For giving me that look that makes me feel safe. For being feeling secure when Im with him. For making me feel better about myself. I thought so many things but Im just stupid. Im wrong. Hes just changed too much. Hes not the same person I thought I loved. That doesnt matter to him tho. He loves someone who doesnt even care about him the way I did. I guess to guyz it just doesnt matter. I was stupid for believing that he would change for the better. For beleiving what he told me. That he knew he was wrong and he would make it better. He doesnt know nothing. He just knows how to make himself happy. Why is it that even when we were in a fight and he needed me to listen I would but the one time I would need him he couldnt be there for me? Its not even like that. We were supposed to be friends but it just seemed that everytime I needed him he would be busy...ignoring my calls or "Can I call you back?" but he never would or when I would do the same to him he would text something to me or call me non stop until I answered? Why is it okk for him to do it but when I do it its being childish and stupid? I dont understand anything n e more. I just hate being here. I wish there was some way I could just leave. Its impossible. Maybe he would get his wish.

"We are just talking because we live close to eachother. Once your gone or Im gone then thats it......"

^Yeah I guess that's what you say to your friends right?

A guy that actually loves a girl..............

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 02:50:28 GMT

Okk I have found a guy that really really loves a girl. LoL Not just being stupid and saying it to say it.They broke up and they still want to be together!!!!!! LOOOOKKK!!!!!!!!!!! Sorryyy His identity is kept secretttt.........

: see love is stronger than anything.. thats one of the reason i will never give up on her cuz some crazy things go in ur mind but u know that theyre not the right things to do.. I waited for her to say this and now she did and im just glad that she finally said it and not me waiting for whats gonna happen but we all know the happy ending
: I'll marry her in the few years
ChaldoCutie121: AWWWWWWWWWWWWWwwwwwwwwww
ChaldoCutie121: do i get to cum?????
ChaldoCutie121: lool
: of course everyone
ChaldoCutie121: thats good
: theres gonna be more than a thousand of ppl
: lmao
: i have alot of friends in my country more than here
ChaldoCutie121: aww
ChaldoCutie121: lol
: and her friends too and family
: lol
: and my friends here
: hell yeah baby
: lol
ChaldoCutie121: lol
: lol not alot of guys would do like that thats why she still wants to be with me
ChaldoCutie121: yeah
: i would of never done that actually if it wasnt her
ChaldoCutie121: yeah
ChaldoCutie121: you only feel that way about one person
: ya
ChaldoCutie121: yeah
ChaldoCutie121: that feeling is too strong to have for n e one else
: yeah
: lol she said she cant trust nobody thats true
: u really cant trust any guys
: even me i did something wrong
: and u know it
: and i loved her sooo much
ChaldoCutie121: yeah
: but i wont do it no more
ChaldoCutie121: exactly
ChaldoCutie121: see
ChaldoCutie121: you cant take it hard on yourself
ChaldoCutie121: you cant learn or feel if you dont make mistakes in life
ChaldoCutie121: you need to get hurt
ChaldoCutie121: to mature
ChaldoCutie121: and
ChaldoCutie121: thats what you did
ChaldoCutie121: lol
ChaldoCutie121: so
ChaldoCutie121: i guess its a good thing in a way
: yeah ive never hurt like this b4 even when i broke up with amyrah and we went out for over 3 years.
: its cuz
: i never really loved amyrah
: liek i love her

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 03:33:51 GMT

Okk....Im fucking sick of all you fucking people talking shit. You all fucking need lifes. Do you really have nothing fucking better to do then try to ruin someone elses life? GET A FUCKING LIFE!!!!!!! Im sooo fucking sick of fake ass people who do have the fucking guts to just fucking tell you if they have a damn problem with you. For one of my best friends. Listen I understand your just playing around and stuff.... But you know what sometimez you go to far with the shit you say to me and its not funny okk. and dont think im just saying this to be hypicritical or sumthing. YOu just need to understand how far to go. For the only guy I have ever fucking cared about in the whole world. FUCK YOU! I hate you more than anything in the world. All you have ever done is lied to me. I have given you soooo many damn chances but I cant take this shit anymore. Ive been there for you whenever you needed it but you could never be there for me? I hate you. I just want to let you know that. You fucking asshole. You alwayz told me you didnt want us to be together because you didnt want to hurt me but that is all you have ever done since the moment we met. All you ever had to do was be honest but you dont even know how to do that. You said that there was one girl that you would be faithful to but you know what you dont know shit about fucking love and how to be faithful! If you loved her you wouldnt be with someone else and you wouldnt be messing with my feelings if you didnt want to hurt me. I hate you just remember that and you know everything that happened between us doesnt mean shit. But you know what I dont know why Im even bothering to type this because its not like you care. You dont have feelings and you only care about yourself and what makes you happy. I hope your selfishness gets you somewhere in life but most likely it wont. So have a good life.

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 05:31:16 GMT

I just want you to understand how much I love you....Why dont you care?

After the night becomes the day.

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 05:49:58 GMT

Yeahhh well Im grounded once again. Its 1:30 in the morning n im sitting takling to Ruffie cuz yeah I cant sleep. Alot on my mind. The last week of school was good. Wednesday I hung out with sum friends... YEAH NAIDA...That was a good day. But it alwayz ends up catching up with me. I promised myself I would never kiss him again. But I did. And everytime I start to realize that I dont need him in my life something alwayz happenz and its just to hard to let go. And I hadnt talk to my ex in a while maybe a few weeks n the second I was about to kiss him My ex called me and I think that was kinda a sign to not kiss him but I didnt pay attention cuz I just dont care n e more. So now Im sitting here and wondering why he cares about her so much and not me And I just want to know what she did for him that I didnt. But I dont know n e more and those are just questions that Im never going to find the answers to. I dont know its just too hard. I dont know what to do. I just dont want anyone anymore. Its just so different with him. I dont know why.Its not like he has tried to prevent hurting me. Its like he does it on purpose. But I guess I just end up falling for the person that hurts me the most. Wow. Im stupid. I see that now. I went to his house on Thursday n chilled with his sister. Shes so cute I love her. Then Yeah my mom found out I had half days. LoL That was kinda funny. But yeah oh well. Saturday n Sunday I worked. I quit at Gelatos cuz Im sick of my boss's bullshit. I hate him. But Oh Well. Yeah. N Antonietta told me Matt died. RIP. That was weird too cuz I had just left the cemetery when she called me. I was visitng my cuzin Matthew who died the same exact way Matt died. And I dont know that was so damn confusing. And I dont know. Im like going crazy right now. Whatever I dont care. Why should I.

I feel your touch caressing me
These feelings are all I ever need
With every kiss from your sweet lips
Its like Im drifting out of time

mhm

Sat, 28 May 2005 02:52:47 GMT

Yeah so I havent written in a while but really the only reason i write in here is when im pissed off or upset with someone so its kinda boring to read it i guess. so lately i havent really talked to him but the other night we had a really long conversation and i was so happy. it was just like it used to be. i wish it was alwayz like that. but i dont really ever get what i want. i dont understand why i feel so safe and comfortable with him. he told me all this stuff about how his life has been since we stopped talking. and i just listened because the things he told me i just couldnt really say anything to him. i felt horrible. i really understand that everything me and him had or atleast thought we had or i dont know. we didnt have n e thing but the things he told me were really lies. he doesnt even care about me. like im the last person on his list to care about. he cares about the same girl he told me he was over. what the hell is wrong with me seriously? i take too much of his shit then after he told me all that stuff he said he loved me...aww. i really hate when he says that. just bad memories. wow. thats horrible when "i love you" becomes a bad memory. then the next day he doesnt call when he said he was then today you know he calls me and tells me to go to a party with him but i really didnt want to so he told me to go to his house because he wanted to talk to me but i know him too well and he only calls me when he needs me to do something for him. i just hope that this girl he is so in love with does as much for him that i do and loves him as much as i do and cries for him as much as i did and still do because i remember he told me that all he wanted was someone to love him as much as he loved her. i guess its too bad he doesnt love me as much as i love him. but i guess its just like my cousin said to me before he died. you always want the person you know you cant have. (with exceptions to others.) wow. im really annoyed so im just going to stop typing right now.
I love you Ralph! Thanks for alwayz being there baby! MuahZz Love you

<33 Rockyy

Regresa a mi...................

Monica....Oh hell no!

Sat, 21 May 2005 17:01:55 GMT

*The Survey*
Name:	Raquel
Birthplace:	Royal Oak, Michigan
Current Location:	Farmington Hills, MI
Eye Color:	Hazel
Hair Color:	Brown
Height:	5'1
Right Handed or Left Handed:	Right Handed
Your Heritage:	Chaldean
The Shoes You Wore Today:	None
Your Weakness:	being a romantic
Your Fears:	losing the people i love
Your Perfect Pizza:	peperoni
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	become a better person then i was
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	oh hell no
Thoughts First Waking Up:	i hate him
Your Best Physical Feature:	hair
Your Bedtime:	whenever i feel like it
Your Most Missed Memory:	when i had a friend that i truly loved that isnt with me now
Pepsi or Coke:	Pepsi
MacDonalds or Burger King:	Burger King
Single or Group Dates:	Single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Chocolate
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Cappucino
Do you Smoke:	No
Do you Swear:	Yes
Do you Sing:	Yes
Do you Shower Daily:	Yes
Have you Been in Love:	Unfortunatly
Do you want to go to College:	Yes
Do you want to get Married:	Yes
Do you belive in yourself:	Sumtimez
Do you get Motion Sickness:	Sumtimez
Do you think you are Attractive:	Not alwayz
Are you a Health Freak:	No
Do you get along with your Parents:	Sumtimez
Do you like Thunderstorms:	Yes
Do you play an Instrument:	Yes
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	Dont remember
In the past month have you Smoked:	No
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	No
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	Yes
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	Yes
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	No
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	No unfortunatly
In the past month have you been on Stage:	Yes
In the past month have you been Dumped:	Yes
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	No
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	No
Ever been Drunk:	No
Ever been called a Tease:	Yes
Ever been Beaten up:	Yes
Ever Shoplifted:	No
How do you want to Die:	Not painfully
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	Pediatrician
What country would you most like to Visit:	Mexico or Spain and Lebanon
*In a Boy/Girl..*
Favourite Eye Color:	Blue
Favourite Hair Color:	Brown
Short or Long Hair:	Short
Height:	At least a few inches taller than me
Weight:	Average for him
Best Clothing Style:	Umm Idk preppy is cute
Number of Drugs I have taken:	None
Number of CDs I own:	Over a hundred
Number of Piercings:	Four
Number of Tattoos:	None
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	3
CREATE YOUR OWN! - or - GET PAID TO TAKE SURVEYS!

Tue, 10 May 2005 19:47:26 GMT

Hello everyone! havent written in here in a while....hmm.....I dont know what to write really. Im not in the best mood. Im kind of sick of everyone at the moment because no matter who you think is true really isnt. No matter wat and you cant really do n e thing about it can you? So yeah I dont really know what to say. Im through with everyone at the moment. Especially guyz. Ugh they are the worst thing in life. He was the best at one point but that never lasts the way you want it to. *tear* I dont know what else to do. I gave him everything but I guess its not enough. Maybe its not him. Maybe it was just me. Oh well. I cant do anything about it like I said. *sigh* I hope everyone else is happy so far but yeah right now Im about to go to the cemetery to see Matthew and just sit there and cry cuz there really is nothing else for me to do right now before I go to work.

I love you.

<333 Raquel

MuahZZ Naida!

Friday

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 15:05:43 GMT

Haha Friday was the shit! I got home from work n I was tired as hell cuz I was working all day but yeah....I went to Marias house for a sec cuz I usually go there before or after work n I chilled there for a while....she was gonna hang out with Evan so I didnt want to bother them....Melinda called me and wanted to go out but I was really tired n I didnt really feel like driving n My mom wouldnt let me go out n e wayz....so then i went in my room n i was talkin on the phone....I called Jose cuz he was supposed to go out with me and Melinda but NOOOOO he decides to ditch me and go out with Lina Olga Ralph and Suzi even tho he goes out with them EVERY FUCKING WEEKEND...but whatever hes retarded so I dont care.... Then My mom told me I could go out if i want so me and Roxanne went up to Melindas house to chill and Maria and Kristina wanted to go sumwhere so I called Jose to go meet up with them cuz they were supposed to go bowling like they do every week cuz yeah im not gonna say nothing mean....but nooooo now they are meeting up at Olgas house to play cards? yeah ookkk whatever so he really pissed me off but I didnt care....so melindas mom loves me lmao right melinda? so she let me take them out n we went to Rams Horn to visit Antonietta but she was in a pissy mood cuz she was PMSing lmaoo j/p we didnt have ANY money! cuz they were broke.....so Melinda got scared and she was like to Antonietta...."OMG WE DONT HAVE ANY MONEY! DO WE HAVE TO WASH DISHES NOW? OMG IM BEING SERIOUS!?!?!" lmaooooo Omg that was hilariousss!!!!!!!!! then we had to leave n the waitress was looking at us like we were physco....oh well... so we went driving around n we ended up going to Wendys cuz Kristina was hungry...n they were scared they were gonna find a finger in their food. So retarded lmao....Then Melinda HAD to have Ice Cream....STupid ass I work at two ice cream places. So we went to the Dairy Queen on 12 and Farmington and they were all yelling at her cuz they said that there wasnt one there and she got all happy and shit when she saw it lmao fat ass!!!! so we went there and got ice cream and sum ugly ass girls were staring at us cuz yeah theyre jealous RIGHT MELINDA! lmao so then it was like 9:50 and i had to get Kristina bak to melindas house by 10 So we were driving and I ended up going all the way down to 9 and Middlebelt again...Shit lmaoooo And THe whole time Maria and Kristina were telling me that I was a crazy driver! WHATEVERRR!!!! Dont get in the car with me lool but I still made it in time hahaha Cuz Im sweet! hahaha Then when I got home my mom cussed me out for getting ice cream lool she was like what is this shit your working at two damn ice cream places why are you getting ice cream for?? then she remember I dont have n e money....N i told her that I have my wayz.... ;-) hahaah No Melinda payed for it....Then I got on the comp and Maria told me that Kristinas dad went to their house n she wasnt there so he left lmaoooo OMG KRISTINA IM SORRY BUT THATS HILARIOUS!!!!!!!!!!!! Ne wayz Got to get ready for work! MUahZ

<3333 Rocky

I love you Monica Mingo

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 03:17:15 GMT

Just got home from work...Im dead tired...I think I have a crush on my boss's son...Shit thats bad..hehe... yeah i want to call sumone n see how everything went for him today but yeah i just dont think that a good idea....im soo tired..shit yeah n my mom keeps telling me to do stuff n im abut to knock the shit out of my brother and sister...................ugh see you guyz tomarrowzz!

Luv AlwayZ!!
Rocky

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 04:25:13 GMT

Mhm Yeah I miss him alot....Oh Well...I dont know about that anymore. So yeah yesterday was pretty fun...I kinda felt uncomfortable but yeah. i went to Jairs Birthday Party awww Cutie! I love him MUAHZZZ So i went to Detroit...Shit dont do that...Lol no it was okk except the fact that my parents called me and were like get your freaking ass home in 10 minutes....Uhh Impossible? haha but atleast I got to see Jair....Ive missed him alot...My baby...Es mio....( LoL Maria) He is like the greatest guy everz! So I didnt have a chance to get him anything cuz Joses stupid ass told me about it the day before and I couldnt get him ne thing the next day cuz Jose was like be at Ralphs house at 5 and I WAS but NOOO WHERE WAS JOSE?!?! NO ONE KNOWZ Cuz he decided to go see his girlfriend and not tell anyone and he was gone till like 630 when we were supposed to be there at 5 and he wasnt answering his phone cuz "he left his phone in the car" yeah okk! whateverr....then he kept trying to talk to me at the party but i didnt want to talk to him cuz yeah i didnt want to....Lozer....N E wayz thats what happened with that I have the cutest pics of Jair n everyone else on my phone! aww Jair pimpin that pink....N e wayz I have to do my stupid research paper....UGH Bye Everyonez MuahZ

<333 Raquel

I only think of you as breakin my heart....I try to keep it together, but Im fallin apart.

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 14:42:21 GMT

Is it possible to love someone so much that you hate them?

WHAT IT IS HOE??

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 17:08:06 GMT

so yeah shit i dont know whatz up with me lately. Mhm either my life is messed up or im messing it up. Im giving up the only thing i care abuot more than anything. shit. im dumb huh? so yeah atleast i got it bakk? kinda? i dont know. its just hard to explain things sumtimez. its really hard to be friendz with someone when they mean more than anything to you and you know that you cant be together. *sigh* =(
so yeah that is the highlight of my day. not really. okk so yeah i want to go out cuz my bebe sister got surgery and shes crying and i hate hearing her cry....so i want to leave. but i have no where to go and no one to go with. oh well. ill figure it out laterzz

Just a lil bit.
^^Right Ralph?

MAHAL KITA HABIBI!
^^ haha Junah.

MuahZ
Rocky!

Last weekend

Tue, 05 Apr 2005 19:36:13 GMT

okk so yeah that party was FUN AS HELLL!!!!!!!!!!! YOu do not even understand! so we walked in there and it wasnt even a big wild party like we usually have it was like a small restaurant and me and renee were like ummmm we got ready and looked cute for these ugly people??? Okk that was mean lool oh well. so yeah i was dancing the whole night i didnt sit down. even during dinner we were running around dancing and my aunt and cuzin was cussin me out saying that it wasnt our party so we couldnt act stupid. DAMN THEN THERE WAS THIS FYYYNNNEEE ass guyy sitting at the table right next to the dance floor. and i kept eyeing him haha im such a hoe. so yeah then my friend n my aunt were like that guy keeps staring at you n shit. and then the damn DJ was gettin on my nerves cuz hes the suckiest damn DJ ever!!!!! he didnt even put n e good songs. not english or bellydancing music. Fuckerr...then yeah this one older hoe got on myne and my aunts and my friends nerves cuz she kept talkin shit about us. dsfasdf;kdfj;asd wuteverrrr!!!!!!! then i was kinda getting a lil drunk by then so yeah i went in the middle and i was the only one dancing in the middle and everyone else was dancing in the line hahahaha and then i got embarrassed cuz i saw that guy staring at me. so i danced in the line tooo. then when slow dance came by he got up and came over and stood next to me like he was gonna ask me to dance then my cuzin came over and stood there. then he was like um do you need sumthing? and the guy was like no....and then my cuzin was like okk i didnt think so. and i ended up dancing with him..........DAMMIT! not like i would have danced with the other guy n e wayz but oh well. then yeah we were dancing the rest of the night and renee went up on stage and started dancing and wen the party ended we were messin with the Djs equipment cuz he wouldnt put on n e more music. so then we were cussin out the rest of the people. renee was cussin out this waiter that kept making excuses to talk to me and my friend lool and i think she embarrassed the hell out of him. (cuz he took her drink) so they had to kick us out of the restaurant cuz we didnt want to leave. lool yeah right. actually my cuzin started cussin out renee. lool so we left around 2 am. then we went to mariams house after....oh wat a day. we chilled there for a while and then the grooms mother fell in love with renee and she would NOT let us leave and i wanted to kick sumones ass cuz i was supposed to drive home. then we finally left. around 5 am we went out to eat at Rams Horn. lool omg funniest shit ever. I think the guy there fell in love with me. so renee makes me go down and order cuz we didnt want to go in and eat. so this guy keeps trying to talk to me and i was sooo annoyed cuz i didnt sleep the night b4 either cuz we were fishing at like 4 am so i ordered and i went bakk to the car. then this other guy that works there came outside and renee was like ay bro tell chris to cum out here....little chris. so he came out and he was so adorable lool he told her that i was cuter then her and she got pissed and started messin with him. then he brought out our food and he was like yeah you the only one that would eva be gettin sumone to carry out yo food at this place. lmaoo i was laughing sooo hardd.. then he wanted to pay for it.....awwwww sooo cuuttteeee....lool but then we gave him a 20 and the food was like 13 lool but it was cuz last time we were there she made him go thru the garbage lookin for her cigarettes cuz he threw them out....POOR BABY! so then we went home and ate and watched tv. she took me to work around 8 and then i had to go home lool. i got dressed and left to mariams house. damn i didnt sleep alllllll weekend and i was sooo damnnn hyper on monday. lool so i went to go see my cuzins at mariams house b4 they left bakk to cali and their asses went to the movies!!!!!!!! LOZERZ LOOOOOZZZERRZZ haha then mhm i left around 11 and shit the drive home is like 45 min OMGG so i didnt sleep that night really either. and i wanted to go see sumone but he was with his GURLFRIEND! LOZER its okk i still luv you my boring gay brother lool good cover up huh Monica?
OKk cant write no more! luv you all! MuahZ!

<3333 Rocky

Spring Breakk

Sat, 02 Apr 2005 15:39:11 GMT

So yeah today....APRIL FOOL'S! Haha Maria. So yeah this break has been shit! But oh well. So Yeah Sumone stole ALL my shit from my car..... WTF thats bull....SO PISSED ABOUT THAT! My cuzin Maverick has been chillin with us but he left yesterday. Easter was chillin. I visited both sides of the family and later that night i hung out with Ralph, Eva, Jair, Suzi, and Jose. Maria was at Ranas house and when i tried to go over there and save her, Jair wouldnt let me. LOZER! haha I still luv him! Tuesday Jose came over n we just chilled for a lil bit. Maverick and Antonietta spent the night on Wednesday. we watched sum stupid ass movie and we watched the Grudge. that was really stupid too. Thursday I had so much shit to do but it was funn. I picked up Monica around 4 30 and i dropped her off at Marias. I left cuz i had an appointment. Then i went back for a second after i got out and they told me that they were going bowling with Jose n everyone. i went home and my mom said i couldnt go but then she made me go to Krogers for her so many times that she said i could. Then Andrew and Maria called me and said that they are at home cuz they didnt want to go bowling so i picked up Saw and The Notebook and i went over to Marias house and me evan maria monica don nikko and andrew watched it. then ralph jair suzi eva aaron n sum other kid came over. right before i left jose and jesus came over. i left right after jose cuz aaron was being fucking stupid like alwayz. LOW LIFE UFTIE! Yeah I hate him. so yeah Yesterday I went to the mall with Maria and Melinda! HELL YEAH! That was funn.....hahah HE WAS SHAVING HIS NOSE! HELL NO! lmfaooo that was funny. Wait Melinda. Let me stare at him and make him think hes cute! hahaha Omg I love those gurls! THen I came home and of course since im the chauffer my mom wanted me to go pick up sum stuff for her. I picked up Maria cuz I didnt want to go alone and then we went to CVS and picked up sum stuff. We went to Blockbuster after and we saw Antonietta outside in her car with her brothers, inside we saw Janice and Lydia...I didnt see Lydia but Maria said she was there and we saw Tina but yeah she didnt say n e thing to us. We left to go get ice cream! hahaha then i dropped her bakk at home. I hate being home seriously everyone is so fucking annoying. Its so even funny anymore. What the fuck?!? Then Jose called me. Awww Hes so cute. I dont remember how long I talked to him for but it was for a while....CUTIE! So yeah I got people cumin to see the house right now and my brother is bein a piece of shit so Ill get bakk after my party tonite!
<333 Raquel

Hm

Fri, 25 Mar 2005 01:50:09 GMT

Yeah so sorry i havent updated lately....just really buzzy i guess....i just got bakk from the gym and i can not move at all...im so tired. so yeah i didnt tell oyu that me and "him" are doing good now. but he still thinks that i treat him like nothing....oh well....so tomarrow should be fun! Me, Maria, Evan, Jair, BILLY!, aaron, and Greg E!! are going to the movies! oh yeah... i Havent seen greg in forever so it should be fun....jose might cum...i dont know. he said he has to work. dammit. *sigh* well be bakk later with how tomarrow goes.
<33 raquel

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 20:25:50 GMT

In the last 30 days, have you…

[x] written something on your body
[x] made a wish
[x] tied your shoes
[x] eaten cake
[ ] signed a contract
[ ] made something explode
[ ] directly and knowingly supported the pornography industry
[ ] sent something through the US mail
[x] been very angry
[x] gone a day without eating
[x] watched more than three different television shows a day
[x] prayed
[x] had a conversation that you considered very personally meaningful
[x] been intoxicated by any substance~~legal or not
[ ] thrown up
[x] gotten paid
[x] gone a night without sleeping
[ ] broken something you like by accident
[ ] envied someone very strongly
[x] finished an artistic project
[x] hated
[x] made very loud noise
[x] made noise that was too loud - - - isn't it the same as the previous comment.....?
[ ] given a thumbs up
[x] slept in a bed that is not, or has never been, your own
[ ] been drunk
[ ] smoked pot
[x] kissed a member of the opposite sex
[ ] rode in a taxi
[x] been dumped or broken up with somebody
[ ] been fired or quit
[ ] been in a fist fight
[x] snuck out of my parent's house
[ ] been arrested
[ ] made out with a stranger
[ ] stole something from your job
[ ] went on a blind date
[ ] lied to a friend
[ ] had a crush on teacher
[ ] been to europe
[ ] skipped school or something else importiant

DO YOU:
[ ] have a bf
[ ] have a gf
[x] have a crush
[ ] feel loved
[x] feel lonely
[ ] feel happy
[x] hate yourself
[ ] have a dog
[ ] have a cat
[x] have your own room
[x] listen to rap
[x] listen to rock
[ ] listen to soul
[x] listen to techno
[x] listen to reggae
[x] paint your nails
[x] have more than one best friend
[x] get good grades
[x] play an instrument
[x] have slippers
[x] wear boxers
[x] wear black eyeliner
[x] like the color blue
[ ] like the color yellow
[ ] cyber
[ ] claim
[x] like to read
[x] like to write
[x] have long hair
[ ] have short hair
[ ] have medium-length hair
[x] have a cell phone
[ ] have a laptop
[ ] have a pager
[ ] have a sidekick

ARE YOU:
[ ] ugly
[ ] pretty
[x] ok
[x] bored
[ ] happy
[x] bilingual
[ ] white
[ ] black
[ ] asian
[ ] mexican
[x] short
[ ] undecided on your height
[ ] tall
[ ] grounded
[x] sick
[x] lazy
[x] single
[ ] taken
[ ] looking
[x] not looking
[x] talking to someone
[x] IMing someone
[ ] scared to die
[x] tired
[x] sleepy
[x] annoyed
[ ] hungry
[ ] thirsty
[ ] on the phone
[ ] in your room
[ ] drinking something
[ ] eating something
[x] ticklish
[x] listening to music
[ ] homophobic
[ ] racist
[ ] sexist

Okkk Waste of timee

So Thru

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 04:22:15 GMT

How can a person be in such a good mood to just being in the worst mood possible. im so sick of everything and everyone. yeah so he called me today and im just so sick of everyone blaming everything on me. he made me feel like shit. he said all i ever did was tell him to go away and that i hated him and didnt want to talk to him. i NEVER said i hated him. maybe i do now. but its just because im so sick of how he alwayz said he cared and then the next second he didnt. i alwayz put everything behind him. he was alwayz first. but he thinks i treated him like a bitch. i cancelled with my friends to hang out with him....just us two..im sorry maria for that i know it was so stupid. i wouldnt ever do that again. oh yeah and if i acted different then things would be different. HOW THE FUCK WOULD THINGS BE DIFFERENT? HOW? JUST FUCKING TELL ME! JUST PLEASE TELL ME! BUT IT DOESNT MATTER NOW RIGHT? CUZ EVERYTHING IS THE WAY IT IS! SO STAY OUT OF MY DAMN LIFE! DONT THINK YOU CAN CALL ME AFTER ALMOST A WEEK AND A HALF AND EVERYTHING WILL BE OK! FUCK OFF!

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 15:49:46 GMT

EIGHT things im wearing:
1. Sockies
2. My dance pants
3. Bra
4. My cross
5. A tank
6. A baby tee
7. My ring my daddy got from Arizona
8. Earrings

SEVEN things on my mind:
1. Tonite!
2. Jair
3. Billy
4. School Tomarrow
5. My Cuzins
6. Moving
7. 'Him'

SIX items I touch everyday:
1. Phone
2. Computer
3. My alarm clock
4. The shower haha
5. Melinda lool
6. My clothes

FIVE things I do everyday:
1. Talk on the phone
2. Eat
3. Watch TV
4. Go Out Sumwhere
5. Get into an argument with sum1

FOUR things I want to do before I die:
1. Be successful
2. Get married
3. Travel the World
4. Beat the shit out of Shaynon (Maverick)

THREE things I think when I wake up:
1. What should I wear?
2. Should I talk to him today?
3. Drama at school?

TWO of my favorite foods:
1. Ice Cream!
2. Chocolate haha (obvious)

ONE person I love more than any other:
1. Mi Chikita!

Tired.

Sun, 20 Mar 2005 03:19:20 GMT

Yeah the party was okk I guess....I expected it to be better cuz thats just how our parties are...but we had the inlawz there so we really couldnt do n e thing....i had one drink and two shots....damn it....plus i forgot the damn camera....so my cuzin ended up cumin home with us. haha hes so funny....lozer....maria wants me to bring him to the movies with us...YEAH RIGHT! so i talked to jair today! yay! i was so happy! hes like my favorite person....I love him....Me and my assumptions huh Jair? Hes so cute.....So yeah Billy is still here from Florida....Cutiee Billy! hes so sweet.... i want to see him before he goes bakk but dont think that will happen....mmmm i talked to that lozer....i hate his ass so much damn ralph! i really do hate him....so yeah i dont even remember wat i said and he was like well you know i cant be with you....I was like bro who the hell said i wanted to be with you n e wayz?? Get over yourself that was like so off of our subject....ETHWELL i swear! freakin stupid ass....damn i hate guyz all together....and on top of it i had another one...sum boater ass guy ask for my number at the party...like bro who are you?? LMFAOO MELINDA HOW CUM EVERYTIME WE GO OUT SUM FUCKIN BOATER IN HIS 20'S ASKS ME OUT? WTF? LMFAO DAMN GOOD TIMEZ!
So yeah Get bakk later!

<333 Raquelly

Maria....Femininity???

MMHMMM

Sat, 19 Mar 2005 18:28:51 GMT

MY CUZINS CAME FROM CALI YESTERDAY!! OH YEAHH!!! DAMN SPRING BREAK IS GONNA BE THE SHIITT!! IM GETTING MY LICENSE ON SATURDAY!! WHAT NOW!?!?! SO MHM I GOT A PARTY TODAY...MY CUZINS BAPTISMAL!! YEAH ITS ALWAYZ COOL CHILLIN WITH THE FAMILY!! YA KNOW....BUT DRAMA! HELL NO! BUT MHM ILL GET BAKK LATER AFTER THE PARTY WITH PICTURES.....LUV TO ALL MUAHZZ

<333 Raquel

Good Day Today Yes

Thu, 17 Mar 2005 01:31:57 GMT

Yeah so today at lunch i was sitting with my chikss....mhm so tati antonietta rachel christine paige and kristin and yeah playing this gamee lool omg that was funny....TATI WAS MAKING FUNN OF MEE!!!! its okk i still luv her cuz shes the best and shes cool like that haha and then i got embarrassed lool so i left and when i came bakk they were making more fun of me!! lool its okk they my gurls so ya knowww.....then me and antonietta were driving home from school and christine was like RAQUEL HOW MANY FINGERS???? LMFAOO AHAHA SHES SO FUNNYY!!!!Ditzz Christine MUAHZ GURL LUV YA!! So yeah everything has been going pretty good lately....Im really hyper right now MMMHHHMMMM......So yeah the only thing that has made me mad is talking to that lozer....ralph you know who im talkin bout yupp yeah cuz he thinks that he is actually important and i call his cell and hang up cuz yeah thats just wat i do....WHATEVERRR!!! so yeah i talked to my chick today and yeah i felt bad that she thought one of my other entries were about her when they werent cuz i dont like tlaking shit about my friendz even when we fight cuz that just makes things worse and im sorry you thought that but it wasnt about you.... i still luv ya hunn im here for you MUAHZ but thats up to you wat you want to believe! So mhm SARA OMG GURL YOU ARE HILARIOUS!! SHIT SHE WAS GONNA KICK YOUR ASS CUZ SHES BLACK LMFAOOOO OMGG THAT SHIT IS SOOO FUNNY!!! YOU SHOWED HER HUH??? LMAOO CALI IS CUMIN IN TWO DAYZZZ!!! AWW SHIITTT!!! MHM But im to hyper to type so im out!! I LOVE YOU!!<<<WHOEVER WANTS TO THINK THATS ABOUT THEM MUAHZZ!! <3333 ROCO!! <<< Paige calls me!

Last Weekend

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 20:54:31 GMT

Oh Yeah....Ok so i havent had a chance to update cuz my computer is gay so on friday it was fun! antonietta was working so i decided to go visit her...me and ruff and then i dont know how jose ended up with us but okay cuz we didnt have a car! haha they are so cute! lool cutieezzzz!! yeah so they like made my day....or my night....haha... then on saturday me and antonietta went to the mall!! that was funnerzz then we dropped off her brothers and we went to my house cuz she was gonna spend the night...then we rented a a few movies...we watched Saw...That was good! well it was okk....I wanted sumthing scary and that wasnt scary....The only part that was scary was when the pig jumped out of the closet...yeah then me and antonietta both jumped and i almost fell off the couch on top of her lmao hahah omg that was funny and the rest of the movie wasnt scary cuz me and antonietta were laughing the whole time...then we wanted to go on the comp and i guess she wanted to keep me up till 4 in the morning again but my brother was being retarded and he wanted to watch a movie on the comp so we couldnt and i fell asleep..then like at midnight sum guy calls me and he was like yeah you called me and i was like uhh no and he was like yeah and we were just fighting like that for about 5 minutes then antonietta got annoyed cuz its the guy that likes herr!! so i hung up and i fell bakk asleep and he called me bakk at like 12 30 and he was like did you call me now??? and i was like Bro get a life no one called you so then he didnt say anything after that so i just hung up on him....then on sunday i went to ohio lool uhh yeah that was really funn knowing that while i was trying on the babys baptismal gown he decided to throw up all over me and then when i was trying on his tux he peed all over me mhm that was cool! so yeah then i was lookin at his gown and i was like to asel what does this say?? and she was like my baptismal...and i was like oh...so i looked at it and i was like it sayz Mi Baptiza....and she was like so? and i was like umm okk....so then Lisa was like....Are we spanish??? Lmao haha shes the biggest ditz that was hilarious.....then on monday what did i do?i dont remember but ill get bakk on that!!

PARTY ALL THIS WEEKEND!!! WHATTTT!

<33 Raquel

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KiKi!!!!!

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 23:13:20 GMT

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KiKi!!! I HOPE YOU HAVE A GREAT ONE BABE!!! So yeah today was really funn haha me and ralph were talking like all day about like everything!! Sexy Ralph!!! yeahh hahaah mhm so im still talking to him now....shit lool thats like 3 hours?? mhm so ill get bakk later!! Happy birthday again Kristin! Luv ya Hunn Muahzz

<33 Rocky

Blah

Thu, 10 Mar 2005 04:26:55 GMT

This whole week has been drama like hell but whatever I dont care....Today I think everything just got to me and I didnt really notice that n e thing was really wrong with me until third hour when my dance teacher was cussin me out cuz I wasnt leaping across the floor....mhm so yeah one good thing...i started talkin to my ex again....i think thats really good for me cuz i can tell him pretty much n e thing and i dont feel like he judges me about it....hmmm hes a good guy...not like another one that i know....so yeah antonietta is talking to sumone....well not really but i think she should cuz i dont know i think the guy is really sweet. sum chick has been annoying me lately and i dont want to say her name because that would just start more drama and i dont want it but yeah shes been a little bitch and ignoring me and acting childish instead of telling me why shes pissed with me which she really doesnt have a reason to be pissed with me about....i hate gurls like that....i hate gurls period. damn. So yeah I talked to Sam today and she was like Yeah so why dont you just have (his name) bring you and i was like uhh what how do you know about him and she was like uhhhh....well.... he was supposed to take me and his sister sumwhere and i was like okk what does that have to do with me and she was like uhhhh yeah well his sister told me that you guyz are like best friends and i was like ohh okk....so then i called his sister and she was like uhh no i dont talk to Sam about you and him and I was like what the hell how does everyone know about us??? Its not like they go to our school or sumthing....So mhm cali is cumin in like 9 DAYZZ OMGG thats soo sooon!! I CANT WAIITT!!It would have been better if i went bakk there tho cuz yeah i dont like michigan cuz its retarded. So yeah Spring Break should be funn chillin with them and Antonietta n e wayyz....Comment...Im out

<333Raquell

-Your tears do not wash away your sorrows. They feed someone elses joy. And that is why you must learn to swallow your own tears.-